JOE IS DYING

#THANK YOU delivered from something this close your love never fails never gives up never runs out on me

waiting. what to do while i wait? worship.

Because you never forget you will remain and you will stay loving strong providing greatly immeasurable is the way you make me yours you are god and i am filled with praise my heart it beats and it thumps with every words i could say or the intangible whispers that you hear i am on the floor grateful unswayable your hands over me immovable once you chose me surely i am marked surely i am pierced yours

I love you I've never loved you like this like your name is a song in my heart a song the universe sings with yes my eyes had seen but my heart is still young too young to feel with courage too timid to say sorry when i fail i am honored that you let me with baby steps walk towards you sometimes dance sometimes crying head down still this heart beats in every seconds for your name, for your love you had shown me mercy through every seconds i passed yawning blank eyes watching the blinking screen goes technicolor tomorrow i won't waste it you've thawed me out don't let the snow freeze me again you're my source of being I love you, I keep you on my heart, on my lips burn my hands with your seal mark me yours, my ears pierced it

Hari pertama sekolah, 1/2 hari doang karena ada 'chance' of snow. Lucunya, di downtown (which is where my school is located) nga snowing, sedangkan di rumah sempet snow sebentar. pas gua pulang jam 3 sore, udah nga ada snow. tapi semuanya tetep putih. Katanya, malem ini bakal ada snow storm. Gua sih nga kepengen besok snow karena, besok gua harus nge-bus ke pioneer square and that'd be a pain in the ass getting through snow. So.. let's hope for the best :) nervous buat besok. but excitement will prevail? hope so.

Dalam waktu satu minggu, adek gua bakal cabut ke TX. Kondisi keuangan nampaknya ngak memungkinkan, tapi, hidup penuh harapan emang banyak cost-nya. Sekarang pertanyaanya, lu mau ngeliat kondisi lu skrg dan worry, atau ngeliat ke Tuhan dan percaya? When He tells you the direction, you follow and rejoice. -- Hasn't hit me yet, but will tomorrow. Download my new cover: http://soundcloud.com/tresdivine/while-we-wait-jack-johnson First time ever I produce a cover song. Still very very rough though.

Gua ngak punya kredensial apapun untuk ngomongin tentang cinta. cuma kalo kata suka boleh dong bilang2. mungkin besok gua akan telpon salon untuk potong rambut, setelah 3 tahun potong rambut sendiri. senang banget masih libur :)

Hello 2012. Dania bulang gua kalo nulis itu seperti pake bulleted points. Saya setuju. pendek dan teratur supaya gampang dan cepet dibaca. Cuma mau kasi oleh2 dari tahun 2011, gua sama theo mencover lagu korea. mohon maaf kalo rada nga sesuai selera anda.. masih harus blajar banyak! in the mean time, enjoy :) http://youtu.be/RZOPm5RgC8s

#gblive i dont want tonight to be the best night of my existence (but it sure feels like one). Thank you for an empty bed, thank you for laughters i heard before i sleep, thank you for great music, thank you my heart throb boy for coming, and thank you Jesus for making it all possible. I'm thinking, should i pursue singing and song writing as a career? I sure love doing it, now. just really scared of singing my own songs. Today's big word: Love. Love your friends. Love because God loves.

found it on bing! <3 it instantly    

grocery list to survive finals week: 1. banana (and peanut butter) 2. messes (buat makan roti) 3. teh ijo yg enak 4. spicy and cheese doritos (to keep me awake) 5. vit c (supaya nga sakit) 6. spam and corned beef 7. nasi 8. soda --makin kebawah list-nya makin nga sehat sebelum pulang ke rumah nanti, gua bakal beli bubble tea and spicy pop corn chicken and fish cake (buat bantuin kerjain PR semaleman). tuhan tolongin, boleh?

Salam dari BFA confusion land. I had to re-write my thesis proposal, but other than that.. I will be tackling ideas for the scripts, and scouting once it's done! cmon, johanna bfore the year ends! btw, skrg gua freelance sama bokapnya temen gua. bikin app gitu deh. bakal seru! :)

My feet pounding on the floor. The carpet muffled the sound, still i am ghr frustrated that my heart pumped harder to remind me that time is compressed now. time should've move faster, but time is pushed as if to heighten the importance of this talk. or this rejection of criticism.

Ya ampun, gua nga seneng ini. gua ngak seneng dia, lebih tepatnya. Cewe yang duduk disebrang gua. Ini masalah sama sekolah seni: "personal". "Kerjaan gua personal. jadi, lu nga bisa ganti-ganti kerjaan gua. dan opini lu ngak bisa mengubah arus kerjaan gua." Ini perbedaan antara sekolah seni dengan sekolah desain. Seni menarik jati dari jiwa diri. Lalu, rasa diberi oleh yang lain. Desain menarik jati dari jiwa orang lain. Lalu rasa, diberi oleh diri. Desain hidup dan berkembang dari kritik, sedangkan seni menggunakan kritik sebagai iklan atau sebagai unauthorized-biography. Maaf, bahasanya sangat makelah, atau puisi. Semakin lama saya duduk dikeals in, semakin banyak saya melihat perbedaan antara kita. Saya ngak pernah akan bilang "ngak. ini selesai. ini ngak akan saya ganti." My work is only successful when others get it the way that i want them to. So i couldn't separate my work from my audience, or from my process. unless, of course, gua ud mal...

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bosen. bosen di kelas. bahasa inggris kaya bahasa urdu. bosen. bosen. mau nonton dan nga kerjain tugas.

List of Edibles that i like (in no order): 1. Italian 2. Sushi 3. Waffle/French Toast + bacon + maple syrup 4. Bubur Cirebon 5. Makanan Padang, esp. rendang merah yg kering pake daun singkong on nasi panas ngepul, and sate padang pake lontong atau lemang. 6. Angel Cookie. Those heart shaped, sugary ones. 7. Kueh Basah: pinada, kueh ape. 8. Pisang Goreng 9. Ikan Teri and Ikan goreng pake sambel. Drinks: 0. Water 1. Smoothies 2. Chrysanthemum Tea - in a can 3. Pomegranate Italian Soda 4. Milkshakes

Can you believe that this piece right here was supposed to be a monument to Russia like Eiffel Tower is to the French? The model  is 22ft-high (that is 6-ish meters, that means 4 of me), but it wasn't engineered correctly that the idea never really came to be. It was supposed to house 3 rooms; an assembly area, an office and an information office. The monument was to be a symbol of the possible Utopia after Lenin took over. At the time, the government was so aggressive on promoting the future of Russia through posters, art, sculptures and monuments, despite the low economic conditions in most parts of Russia. What's cool about this monument is its aesthetic form. Geometric line that builds a staircase towards the stars. The spiral is dynamic, it is clean and avant garde. It implied movement and action (constructivism!). Imagine if the monument was really built (better engineered too). Wouldn't it look so bizarre among buildings? I would like to see that. ...

Lagi merasa sangat-sangat disayangi sama tuhan. Ngak kebayang banget bisa dipilih dan diberkatin kaya gini. Ngak minta, dan kalau pun minta ngak berhak juga. Cuma, malah disayang pol-polan sampe ngak bisa bilang apa-apa lagi selain Thank you. Kalo tuhan itu orang, gua udah bilang "stop-stop, gua sungkan." Cuma, karena Tuhan, ya... ngak perlu sungkan dong. kan emang Tuhannya yang baik, bukan karena gua-nya yang berhak dikasih berkat. So, again, Father. I want to hug you. For reals.

Things I want to do: 1. Travel 2. Do music 3. Dive, Snorkel, Surf, Swim 4. Inspire People, tell great stories.