hmmm...

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i've applied for SAT and 10 december would be the day. wish me luck or i shall crumble in my own misery of being skeptical.

today's the last, literally, last day of high school. and i just wanted to say that...

i love you my fellow year 12s.
even though sometimes you hate this over confident, arrogant, petite bitch, but i would remember all the days that we spent together. For all the 10Bs, the 11Arts and 12Arts... it was nice spending time with you. it's been a hell of a 2.5 year. And to all my other mates, dude BiNus was freakin' fun. see you at graduation. Shucks, i feel like crying.

hugs and more hugs,
joweeek

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