JOE IS DYING

futon cleaner bought from daiso the other week, for $1.50. am i such a cheap-stake? no im not. im just a poor, broke, college student living in seattle. ps: the Sakura are blooming!! spring is coming, but the air is still freezing. it was fun. we laughed so much. i can't even tell you. i was actually really really happy that i could laughed as much, because as far as i could remember, the last time i laughed so hard, and so long, was at... um... SMP. hahahahha. oh, what a pathetic life. but, then, reality check. Cornish gave me so much homework for the next day that i had to stay up till five finishing my work. and sadly, since i lost my phone - yes i did, at the bus the night i went to Warm Beach- i've got no alarm to wake me up. alhasil, i didn't go to my first class; Digital Publishing. and Misha was like "hey, johanna, you wasn't at class this morning...", and i went "yeah, *sigh* sorry". today is gonna be the same thing. the difference is. I CAN

Steven Meisel's photo-story. see all the Gundams? Gotta love em. hear he, hear he it's official that my adorearts.info blog will no longer be active. it was never active anyway. this new one, however is currently active. nothing personal will be blogged there, that's why i have this little blog right here. >>http://tresdivine.livejournal.com<< is all about design, music, fashion, photography, and movies. so, for those who liked my design sense - all those quirky, cool design cases i've got going on - that's the blog worth following. well, that's all for now. i'm off to warmbeach with my church mates. im going to blur's place before. so wish me safetiness and i'll write again if i'm not dead by then.

Do i really need to work right now? and then throw out your school life out the window? are you kidding me, johanna? go work! hey, it's almost 12.30, and the laundry isn't finished. you haven't even done it. (holy crap, johanna, you lazy mother-) and now you're playing with the internet like you got all day. do you really think you can work? do you think we have the time to do this if church is at 3? exactly my point. so stop doing all that and work. gah, you just farted. go away you little-

dang, i can be the world's greatest bitch right now. im throwing things out of my plan for the day, because i simply chose to hang out with my friends (a two hour thing, extended to a whole nighter) and im friggin pissed that i can't change my underwear right now. i wanted to curse and everything. but i won't lose to my flesh. H(Q@Y${*)#^$*(#@HT{Q)@&#$#@TYHIW!!!!

as much as i love partying. i can't chose that over care group. as much as i am curious about the corn drag ball, i can't take that over being with my friends and talking about stuff that really matters. as much as i want to socialize normally to these bules , i can't and i don't want to do that if i have to miss my care group. so that's a decision i've made. gah, i want to go. just to check that out. and bust some moves. cause i haven't been to a dance party since... highschool. i missed crazy-dancing. temen2 indo disini selalu ketawa klo gw joged2. i like joged2, but it's gonna be more fun if there are people who craze dance with me too. but, heck, im still happy. gue butuh ngeluarin energi gue bener2 nih - bukan dalam bentuk kerja (PR GUE BANYAK BGT!) tapi dalam bentuk hal yg fun. kaya karaoke, joged dan ketawa ngak berhenti.

thank you lord for an answer i've been waiting for. thank you for giving me the strength to wait. thank you for the journey that has shaped my entire perspective. thank you that the understanding, and the extra hint of wisdom you've given me is so much greater than what i could reap my whole life if i didn't go through this. i am glad that you've put me through so much, and yet in the midst of this "valley of the shadow of death" you did not gave up on my ever pressing fear. you did not leave me just because i half-heartedly gave up. you nudged me and i found again a reason to be joyful. even when the answer is still on its way. now that the answer is here, i am so much calmer, god. i have so much space in my lungs i could breathe freely. now that the answer is here, there's joy rather than the typical johanna's happy-crazy-energetic mood. the joy took over and gave peace (only a little more upbeat, since im smiling and sighing joyfully). is it weird,

can you guess who's who. i stumble upon this on ffffound as usual. and im loving this. i could tell there's Darth Vader, Godzilla, PacMan's monster, some guy who looks like mr.smith from Matrix. help? the little from my life im so scared right now. i never felt so small before - no, actually i have. Once upon a time when Johanna took piano classes with a young, pretty teacher named Ms. X, she felt the same way every day the class took place. It's one of those feeling when you just feel like you wanna die because it's just impossible to be better than the others, or at least to stand out from the others. but i know it's probably is my pride being sucked in, getting through the fact that i will not always be the best. and i should be humble. it is a competition and i shouldn't back down before i even stepped up to the game. And so i ask for courage and strength to keep me walking. something very, very, scary happened today before i went to school (at 4pm). i w

rasanya mau ngerjain sesuatu tapi bener2 gak bisa menahan diri lo untuk melakukan yang lain? capek bgt menghalangi diri sendiri untuk melakukan apa yang dia suka sendiri. seperti mengencangkan ikat pinggang sampai perut tertahan dan tidak bisa makan karena sakit perut. mau pasang lagu seperti apapun, kamu ngak akan pernah berasa mau kerja. kenapa? karena badan kamu menahan diri. contoh, saya seharusnya ngerjain portfolio yg due tomorrow. tomorrow is school day. tomorrow is monday. and i've got no more time. it's 12.04 now, and im blogging. see what i mean? saya mau pesan ke badan saya sendiri: JANGAN SAMPAI KAMU NYESEL JOHANNA! iya, iya. santai lah. HEH! JANGAN MACEM2 KAMU! buruan publish, sayang. kalau ngak kamu ngak bisa dapet scholarship untuk tahun depan. kamu mau kan? kamu mau tetep sekolah kan? Jo... Jo please dengerin gue. ayo lah... *sigh* ok, ok. i hear you, jo. you listen to me now, publish this and let's get back to work. ok, honey? cmon... jo, menurut kamu, kit

ok, so a couple of things are on its way and im glad that they are. but here are the things that i ned to do before i kill myself in agony due to non-productivity: 1. get the friggin cutting mat at school. which means, going to utrecht to buy some paper stock and extra blades if my friggin knife went bad. 2. be estatic and get all the creative juice out 3. give myself the best of luck and show the best of perfection for this 4. don't drive myself into insanity 5. don't drive your body into mere "survival" mode. wish me luck as i do for you guys too who are looking for ways to get the job done. when it's only 48 hours till due date. ps: 6) stop saying "damn it" and other curse words that are not supposed ot be said. damn it!

Ingredients Makes about 16 filled macaroons 1 1/4 cups plus 1 teaspoon confectioners’ sugar 1 cup (4 ounces) finely ground sliced, blanched almonds 6 tablespoons fresh egg whites (from about 3 extra-large eggs) Pinch of salt 1/4 cup granulated sugar Macaroon Filling Directions To make the macaroons: Preheat the oven to 350 degrees. In a medium bowl, whisk together confectioners' sugar and ground almonds. In the bowl of an electric mixer fitted with the whisk attachment, whip egg whites with salt on medium speed until foamy. Increase speed to high and gradually add granulated sugar. Continue to whip until stiff glossy peaks form. With a rubber spatula, gently fold in the confectioners' sugar mixture until completely incorporated. Line baking sheets with parchment paper; set aside. Fit a pastry bag with a 3/8-inch #4 round tip, and fill with batter. Pipe 1-inch disks onto prepared baking sheets, leaving 2 inches between cookies. The batter will spread a little. Le

Strike up the band let it play Love songs to haunt me and I will stay But when it comes to a waltz Both words and music will ring false For you waltzed in and spun my world Around in dizzy dance I swirled But suddenly you waltzed away from me Those violins, they must go So no careless hand with a bow May play on the strings of my heart And make me remember how lovers part How you waltzed in and spun my world Around in dizzy dance I swirled But suddenly you waltzed away from me Strike up the band let it play Whatever it chooses and I will say Play me a waltz if you will I'll sit here and listen waiting until My love returns to take my world And spin it round in dizzy swirl Where girl loves boy and boy loves girl And feet don't touch the ground

artistic punk - by tresdivine on Polyvore.com are things ok? can't say they are. but they soon will be. i've got hope and none can take it away from me. it's 1.21, i've finished watching 300. tomorrow is sunday so i better get some sleep. by the way, my spring break is this coming week. i'm planning for a mega exploration around seattle - with or without friends with me. but its also gonna be a work week for me. xoxo.

gue berharap bisa seperti ini jadinya... panik dan takut. doainnn ya... Jo: hi, Jeff*, do you have a minute? Je: yeah sure, come on in Jo: hi, i believe my father had sent you some email about my tuition Je: yeah Jo: yeah, the economy in indonesia is pretty much unpredictable here. we basically had to lower our property's price so that people could afford it. if everything goes according to plan, the guy who's gonna buy our place is coming on thursday and by then we'll be totally sure that he really is going to buy our place. the thing is, we've changed buyers a few times. and this one seems to be the perfect one. Je: uh huh Jo: well, yeah, that's that for now. i just dont want the similar thing to happen again next semester. that's gonna be a total let down, you know. im just wondering if i could maybe pay the tuition in two stages for the next semesters. that would really help out. Je: - worst case scenario- um, im afraid i can't give that to you, johanna

better mistakes? - by tresdivine on Polyvore.com its been long since i do one of these sets. i missed fashion. i missed window shopping. i missed my fashion-conscious high school friends.

just home after a night at Ci Stefanie and Ching Ming's place. as usual, im dog tired and felt like purely going to bed after all the money i spent for dinner and lunch. gah, i should know when to really cut my expenses. this can't go on. anyway, up there is a poster i made for jieun. i have a lot to "repaire" as the client want less "cartoon" style images - which is actually my style. im very vector based, rather than photographic base. sorry :-(. but im gonna do my best, so wish me luck! ps: masih belum bayar uang sekolah juga...