JOE IS DYING

List of Edibles that i like (in no order): 1. Italian 2. Sushi 3. Waffle/French Toast + bacon + maple syrup 4. Bubur Cirebon 5. Makanan Padang, esp. rendang merah yg kering pake daun singkong on nasi panas ngepul, and sate padang pake lontong atau lemang. 6. Angel Cookie. Those heart shaped, sugary ones. 7. Kueh Basah: pinada, kueh ape. 8. Pisang Goreng 9. Ikan Teri and Ikan goreng pake sambel. Drinks: 0. Water 1. Smoothies 2. Chrysanthemum Tea - in a can 3. Pomegranate Italian Soda 4. Milkshakes

Can you believe that this piece right here was supposed to be a monument to Russia like Eiffel Tower is to the French? The model  is 22ft-high (that is 6-ish meters, that means 4 of me), but it wasn't engineered correctly that the idea never really came to be. It was supposed to house 3 rooms; an assembly area, an office and an information office. The monument was to be a symbol of the possible Utopia after Lenin took over. At the time, the government was so aggressive on promoting the future of Russia through posters, art, sculptures and monuments, despite the low economic conditions in most parts of Russia. What's cool about this monument is its aesthetic form. Geometric line that builds a staircase towards the stars. The spiral is dynamic, it is clean and avant garde. It implied movement and action (constructivism!). Imagine if the monument was really built (better engineered too). Wouldn't it look so bizarre among buildings? I would like to see that. Question:

Lagi merasa sangat-sangat disayangi sama tuhan. Ngak kebayang banget bisa dipilih dan diberkatin kaya gini. Ngak minta, dan kalau pun minta ngak berhak juga. Cuma, malah disayang pol-polan sampe ngak bisa bilang apa-apa lagi selain Thank you. Kalo tuhan itu orang, gua udah bilang "stop-stop, gua sungkan." Cuma, karena Tuhan, ya... ngak perlu sungkan dong. kan emang Tuhannya yang baik, bukan karena gua-nya yang berhak dikasih berkat. So, again, Father. I want to hug you. For reals.

Things I want to do: 1. Travel 2. Do music 3. Dive, Snorkel, Surf, Swim 4. Inspire People, tell great stories.

sangat ngak ada drive buat sekolah. ngak tau kenapa. dan ide kreatif ngak ada yang ngocor. mungkin gua bosen mungkin gua... lagi dapet. jadinya emosi nga jelas.

Gua baru selesai baca Sarah's Key. A beautiful book written by Tatiana de Rosnay. Set in present time and WW2 france. I was deeply carried by the story, moved to anger and tears. A strong theme of collective memories, history and their connection to one's identity. Sounds like one of my thesis ideas, huh? Reading through Sarah's Key, i couldn't stray away from these ideas: - "divorce" is getting so... casual, unsurprising, light. - getting old is scary. partly the jarring and sudden change (from first person pov) - passing down memories are important to keep you grounded to who you are I cried reading the book, because i remembered my grandparents and the conversations we could have had, if i had known the importance of conversations. Now i had lost 2 of them, and i don't want to lose the other 4 (opung, opa pede, oma dee, opa dan). Really, i want to talk to them. I want to listen to their stories, laugh and cry with them. I want them to share their