JOE IS DYING

me talk pretty by tresdivine 6 Resolusi ter-elastis: 1. baca alkitab sampe abis 2. ngak ngomong kotor lagi 3. tidur yang teratur 4. gak hemat untuk makanan 5. makin tinggi - iya gue masi bisa bertumbuh! percaya gak? 6. gak males nyoba ikut design competitions di sekolah dan ambil lebih banyak scholarships [nomor 1 dan 6 yg paling serius] 3 hal yg gue kangenin dari rumah: 1. gak perlu mikirin makanan. 2. gak perlu pusingin duit. 3. gak perlu sibuk ngurus trasportasi. [kalau dipikirin lagi, gue pengen liburan ke indo dan makan sampe buntel. ha5]

Yah, gue baru nonton gran torino di internet. i know, i know, you can scold me. but i've been stuck at home for weeks and one thing i could do is to surf the net and watch some oscar worthy movies. Gran Torino was amazing. It's about a man, a north-korean war veteran who is living in a solitude. He's not a very corteous man, but he helped a young Hmong boy to grow and become a young man. However, that help includes some game with a Hmong gang that this boy, Tao, was once initiated by. A couple of things that i like here is the use of bad language, the rough-tough look of clint eastwood and the great amount of asian casted for this movie. Next stop, another Eastwood movie - The Changeling and then, The Curious Case of Benjamin Burton. Btw, yesterday after church we ate at Chaiyo; this amazing thai restaurant. I love every dish i've ever eaten there. Some to check out; Pla Prik King (fried trout in sweet-spicy chili sauce), Tasty Beef (beef dipped in sweet, savoury sauce)

by 3 months! it's not a big deal. but looking back at those posts in 2005, i really feel like i am a totally different person. masi sama sih lebay-nya, atau gokilnya. mungkin lebih cantik sedikit (bwakakakkakak), but the way i write is a lot different. gue kalo baca post pertama gue, men, gue malu! Apalagi kalo gue baca post dari 2003 pas jaman 2-4 di dajox.blogpsot.com, yg setelah bbrp kali nge-blog di joeisdying, gue shut down. masih inget kah? i dont know what i sounded like before. maybe a total air head. btw, ada ttg dajox di blognya arsella . tuaaa bgtttt! gue gak serius blogging dulu. mungkin krn temen2 gw jg gak ada yg eksis blogging. jadi gue males. but now, i know that wordpress is the new blogging, and i've set a web there; adorearts.info . but really, i can't manage more than one without having to neglect the other one. anyway, enough reminiscene. ikuta toma menunggu di dunia mimpi. btw, i've been dreaming about a lot of boys lately. none that i know though.

im all alone. please, someone, take me out! oh, my brother is coming tomorrow, so i hope our days gonna be a blast. he's gonna sleep over. anyway, back to my point. im alone. listening to christmas songs that only made me feel more deprived. this is my first christmas alone. ever. well, now is the time to really take things closer with the birthday boy - Jesus and enjoy my time solely with Him. sounds good? it should be.

almost the end of the year by tresdivine this year, a lot of things had happened. In a way, i think i've grown much, changed much. In some parts, however, i felt like i've let myself down for quite a sum. In six months off, i didn't do anything much. Or that it might seem. I learned a lot though, i took care of myself a lot more, develop things that i didn't have time when i was in school. I took the time to learn hair styling, i took jazz vocal classes with Kak Hari, i swam every now and then, i was much involved in church activities, i prayed a lot. and i mean, a lot. it is true that through pain and troubles, you'll grow, you'll learn to endure and to persevere. For a couple of weeks now, i've been praying for god's touch, like a solid presence in my life. I want to be hungry, to really be able to listen and be satisfied. Maybe, i wasn't as seriously praying as i made myself sound. I had my mind going to other places and i wasn't focus on wha

tidak.tidak.tidak. bank over draft lagi. it's the third time this year. please, please, please don't fine me. oh, god, why am i so stupid. and i've kept it that way for more than one week. please, please, B of A, don't fine me. i'll be a good kid. pinky promise. god, please give me enough money for the semester. i solely depend on you. amen. semuanya, bantu doa ya... *bungkuk-bungkuk* ps: i've finished watching Honey to Clover. The sight of Toma Ikuta do not send me to la la land anymore. *happy sigh*

Hey, it's a new thing for my blog. One Take Talk. No cuts, no scripts, no rehearsals, no second take, no dressing up. Me in my original form, talking about whatever came to mind first. Enjoy! after breakfast while blogging, playing guitar and reading the bible -- johanna went out of her room to paint the scenery. i missed painting, better go and start now. btw, kok gw blum dapet2 ya...? GW GAK HAMIL! Nih anak, cowok aja gak punya mau hamil...

merry almost christmas!  it's snowing out here - continuously through out the whole day. so, it's gonna be a white christmas all and all. check out my facebook video for the exact craziness that Jen and i had.

but i gotta do this! the most adorable japanese actor. oh my friggin cow. i have to swallow my pride and be honest. i am in asian drama trance. no matter how hard i tried not to watch these kinds of asian rom-com, i've been sucked into this dark hole of major asian cuteness. i dont think i'll be able to go back to the usual olive skinned, brunette, facial hair with built features caucasian guys with brittish accent. i am loving this guy - Ikuta Toma! watch him @ the japanese version of Han Kimi. Actually, the title is much longer than this, but that's all i could remember. KYAAAAA, kawaiiiiiiiiii *pardon me* TSUKI!!! ^___^ (omg, since when did i start these kinds of emoticons? last time i used it was at junior high. and the last time i used japanese was at grade 11 when i took jp lessons for manga watching reasons)

tagged by Nandya . tagging- ferna , filza , rama , giorby . "Okay, so some people might have whined, protested on why are you still single or not satisfied with your partner. so now i dare y'all to explain what type of ideal partner do you want. It does not have to be serious, it might also for the purpose of reflection! dont be ashamed, and be honest okay! good luck ;p " Nands, why are you doing this to me? (=__=") No matter, i would still do this out of pure integrity. lol. Good looks are never a sense of measurement to me. I could easily fall for the most random person in the world. Somehow, though attractiveness does highlight a guy in my book, but after a day or two of getting to know him, he'll be the same as the other guys i know. As long as he smells good and he's confident about himself, i'm cool with that. (oh, and i have a thing for goatee. weird, but it's the truth.) So, let's skip the "looks" section and move on to the st

for myself! a Jasmine guitar by Takamine. i dreamed that amazon will send me a cheap guitar, like those thin wood, glossy after spray that sticks to your fingers. so i prayed a lot to god that he would give me a guitar that rise above my expectations. and He did. the guitar was beautifully light, dove finish wood, no stubs any where, the neck wasn't as high as i thought it would be (which is great) and though it'll took sometime for the guitar to take its standard tuning, i'm already loving the way Taka (his name from now own) sounds like. the strings aren't nylon (which i love) and the standard shape of the guitar is just gorgeous. i felt like a little kid, opening that giant box in the dining room. my host auntie was looking at me like im weird. but she's happy that im extatic. she's a darling. so, thank you Lord. i love You!

you dont know me by tresdivine it is the first day of my break (as of, now; 12.35am) and i already felt like i've had enough of it. i spend the last half day of school watching movies. like, im back to that time of my 8 months break after high school. no goals, just living the ordinary. so, i decided to make this holiday the best out of it. here's my list: 1. once my guitar is shipped, i will start playing them - praising the lord. 2. i will call Ci Fani and ask to join the music team 3. i will explore seattle as of Monday. i will make a list of places to see. sadly, im gonna see them by myself. because everybody else are having their little break - and im afraid to get someone along with me. im such a loser, i know. 4. i will search for more scholarships. 5. i will stop making more things to do - because i know i wont be able to do them all. 6. OH, i will start making short stories. i will not start another novel. because i wont finish them no matter how many times i tried. 7

ALMOST!!!! tomorrow will be the last day and it'll be the bomb! i got a christmas present from nancy taing! she's so sweet. she gave me this cup filled with hersey's nipples (ooohhh, i know riighhhttt...! *wink*) and swiss miss hot chocolate mix (i've got plenty now!). what's so cool is that i really need to get myself a cup for tea or hot cocoa. i can't use my host's cup everytime. or else i'll feel bad. so this is a blessing, and nancy got the really cute cup for me! there are like red and yellow dots hanging by a thread. it's like those starbucks decor look - which i adore. so, i loooveeeee! here's a few photos to come with it. the book i spend working with till 6.30 in the morning, and it's done now. i presented it today. that's the sketchbook from which all the contents of the book came from. and those are my class mates (the girls only. apperently, all the guys were out for the day. hmmm... coicidence?). johanna, rachelle, nancy, gr

try to talk to me about asian drama in junior high and high school, you'll know that i stayed away from it. the sadness of the stories, the predictable turn of events and the never ending complicated plots always bugged me. that's why i stopped watching them since my maids stopped getting access to those kinds of tv shows. however, in christmas 2007, my cousin; Ocha, brought with her a whole deck of chinese romantic comedy series. which we watched every night in secret (since all our other cousins aren't of age). do i love it? yes i do. i almost forgot how cute these asian drama could be. that's where the rom-com day dreamings came to my head for the hundreth time. it comes and go, no matter how hard i try to stop them. but here's a quick way to stop picturing an actor's face (or any other given guys) in your day dreams; 1. pikirin yg laen pas keinget mukanya. 2. stop apa pun yg ada hubungannya sama dia. poster, film, musik, etc. 3. bikin ill fill. gue (walaupun

oh dear, i've gone work-crazed. i woke up with a series of to do lists. i know exactly what i will do for the day, i planned the exact time of when to do them and i do them according to plan. there goes my Hyde Marge in action. Hyde is always the girl who planned things and planned them good. Johanna is the girl who take the little time offs and create enough comfort zones for her to be in (even in tough times). In days like these, Hyde seems to be working off her tight ass for me. She wrote dozens of to do lists (on pieces of paper, on her ipod, on her cell phone, on her laptop) and she actually made me do 70% of them. i could say that i actually am proud of myself. but, sadly... Khong told me an asian drama series to watch and i couldn't stop watching it on youtube. I might be real slow on this, cause i haven't watch these kind of things since Endless Love (in Elementary School) and since Ocha bragged about Coffee Prince (and we had a marathon over the last christmas brea

no, this is nothing about the movie. though so, i found this poster a real charm. i really like the butterfly's wings, truly gorgeous without even trying to look elegant. i love this look. this childish, quick and witty looking design. anyway, an update as requested by giorby... (akan gue tulis pake bahasa indo, habis gue udah "go public" dengan cara masuk blog gue ke facebook. takutnya orang2 sietel bakal baca -ntar pada big headed semua lagi. he2) yeah, gue mampir ke rumah temen sekolah gue namanya lia, bareng sama devon, kita ketemuan di Pike Place Market. Yang sebenernya adalah pasar yang bersih dan gak becek (beda sama di indo). disini ada macem2 jualan. dari ikan, kueh, minyak olive, sampe jam yang seru banget. bukan jam tik-tok-tik-tok, tapi Jam-Selai. Nah, selai2 ini dibuat dari bahan2 yg lo gak bakal kepikiran; horseradish, onion, pepper, ginger, etc. pas gue rasa... they were divine. like, they were made from these ugly vegies and they tasted great. but i dont h