JOE IS DYING

well, i just returned from the hospital scarcely hungry ! Since my mother is afraid that i might had a TBC (hepatitis C), i made an appointment to the doctor and went straight to the lab to check my health. i was so nervous that i can't sing, when i know that they will take my blood ! Urgh, i felt like i was full of sweat and tears... Not that i cry or anything. When the doctor slowly beginning to get the ever so small needle, i was cringing and i dance (fidgeted actually). i cant stop laughing...of course till the needle get there. my mom said "nggak sakit kan ?" and i was "sakit, dikit... ayo nyanyi mam, supaya aku nggak pusing. ahhahahahahah". akhirnya, gue selesai di ambil darahnya. dan waktu gue lihat berapa banyak darah yang diambil... DENG ! 3 tubes. maaannnn, three dang tubes ! they took 3 dang tubes of my friggin blood !!!!!!!! i gotta eat something, fast. Urm, tonny roma's ribs ?? yum-yum... ps: bukan, mbak, gue akhirnya nggak turun peringkat dari...

where is that scholarship application that i need to write on?? Oh, gosh, this thing is DRIVING ME NUTS ! i'm afraid i wont get to university. oh, dang! HOWEVER, to put my mind in a better state of mind, i'll think about happy thoughts. hmm, AH ! i remember, i got eight (or seven) months of holiday now. and i've found ways to spend it. i'm going to apply for a japan or UK or italy gap year language program. If anyone have a recommendation, please, spare my time. haha. i'm going to travel-travel and travel. oh, boy, i love travelling. there's this sense of adventure in you that does not wear out, until you get into bed, nicely tucked and ready to fall asleep. Obviously, i haven't travelled too far to be home sick... but still, i am hardly homesick anywhere. if i could make a wish, i wish to travel the world. ahahaha... but i'll know i need the money for college. so i'll stick to plan number one: travel to one or two country only (before college) and g...

i hate spring panic !! every time i opened my e-mail to check on my university application process, i always found my heart beating so fast. maybe it's anxiety, but i sure know it's more negative than mere excitement. i am afraid of being wait-listed, moreover being rejected. i know my SAT score SUCKED sooo bad, but that does not mean that i wouldn't get into a uni or college. i am so proud of my portfolio and my essay (and short answer) that i did not pay much attention to my SAT score. thinking that an "above the average" TOEFL test score and a few awards in high school are enough. but, DANG, i knew it is not ! this situation is NOT okay, and sadly i cannot do anything about it. so here is what i am going to do BEFORE the dead line of most uni applicaitons: 1. print all essays and short anwers, send my TOEFL score to washington u (the 19th pickiest uni according to newsweek "how to get into college" winter 2008 edition) 2. contact the universities 3. ...