The time has come again, to see where I am at. ya tuhan gua ngak ngerti ini gimana. gua ngak tau mau gua apa juga, jadi gimana gua mau ngomongin next steps kalo gua ngak tau apa2 gini. hancur lah hancur.

I really need to pray about it. I really need guidance, more than just 'everything is going to be fine', god. really. Give me something.